Lately...

So I have been slacking horribly at this guy, I honestly have had so much going on that hasn't been good that I didn't want to be one of "those people" who complained all the time. So I have just stayed away, but, these last couple weeks I have had mono (worst sickness ever, I hope no one ever has to have it) and I have been stuck in bed doing nothing but watching crappy reality tv and HBO all day, I had to get up and do something different, so here we are.

So, last night Tony and I had a really really good talk about our lives and were we were headed. We haven't had a very awesome 2013 year to be honest, it was probably the hardest year of my entire life...there was so much crap that had happened and then there was the whole baby thing that wasn't fun at all. The hardest part was though at the end of the year Tony and I started having problems in our marriage, I NEVER in life thought that would happen to us, in my mind we were the strongest couple ever and we could get through anything, which we could mostly. I feel like we were both so stressed out with random bills coming up and our regular bills, he was working a ton, I was working 6 nights a week and some of those were 12 hour days so I was NEVER seeing Tony. and it was HARD. Marriage is not an easy thing. We got married when I was 18 and he was 21 and I was so excited and I thought it would be like a sleepover every night with my best friend.....not like that at all. It is something that you have to work at every.single.day. and there are some days that you don't know how are you going to make it to the next day. To make a long story short, we both did somethings that we regret and we had to go through those things to get back to eachother and get our lives back in order. Tony is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me in my life and I know that I was ment to be with him for a reason, I know that I was ment to go through the trials that we have together with him. I am extremely lucky and I will never take that for granted again. Other things that I won't take for granted is drinking, with this mono my throat has been so swollen that I have hardly been able to drink...I had to go into the doctor and get 3 bags of fluid through an IV because I was so dehydrated, 3!!! Now, I am slowly drink water through a straw, when I just want to guzzle it, but I can't. bleh.
-Talking, I will start to talk but then get tired or my throat will start to hurt so I will have to stop and text Tony even though he is sitting right next to me.
-Singing in the car, for anyone who knows me knows that I am a huge car singer. Let me tell you how much torture it is to not sing in that guy. I don't even want to listen to music because I can't just belt it out.Tony is probs happy that he gets a little break from that one though.
-eating, ALL I want is doritos and ALL I can eat is soup. I think that is all I can say about that subject.
-Kissing, Tony will not kiss me on the lips until I am better. I miss his kisses every second of the day! :(

okay, that is all of the feeling sorry for myself. I guess the point of this blog was to just tell Tony thank you for being amazing and to complain a little bit about this horrible sickness and to try and get into blogging again. We have a lot of fun plans for this year. We have decided to just not even think about a baby and just let it happen on its own time. Our 5 year anniversary is coming up in April and we are going on a family vacation to Northern California and staying on a beach house. I.am.so.excited. I have made it my goal to wake up early every morning and go running and watch the sunrise on the beach. I also told Tony that I want to ride horses on the beach, that has always been my dream. ahhhh I can't even wait! We are also going to go to Southern California in October and do the whole Disneyland Halloween that we used to do and see LUKE  BRYAN in concert in LA. HoLLA! So exciting! So I am hoping that this year will be much better than last with all the fun things that we have planned and that our baby will come in its time and it will be so worth it! Thanks for reading my pointless blog of the day!

xoxo-gossip girl (did I mention that I've watched a loooot of netflix?? haha)