Graduation

So this week I had the pleasure of seeing my sister graduate......pretty crazy experience. I had to work a graveyard shift before so I went into this with no sleep after drawing little tiny babies in the NICU all night. Needless to say, it was the best graduation ever. SO much better then mine, and it left me in tears. Not only does Copper Hills now have the greatest principle I have ever had the honor of hearing speak, but I got to witness something amazing. There was a boy in Tal's class who's dad accidentally shot him and he was told that he would be paralyzed and would never walk again, He walked across the entire stage to receive his diploma......it was amazing and so inspiring.

I had a really hard time at her graduation, I honestly loved high school. If i could have the opportunity to go back and do it all again, I would in a heartbeat. I think graduations are kind of silly, because they all talk about how you've received all this knowledge and you can go out and conquer the world and do anything blah blah blah. Honestly, its all bull shit. I learned nothing in high school that I use in my daily life.....I don't really use math, I don't use english, Who knows the last time that I used science. I feel like I didn't learn much from high school except for how to sluff class and go to the mall without getting caught and how to forge my moms signature for disclosures. Don't get me wrong, I think my sister is the most amazing thing on this whole planet and I KNOW that she is going to go on and do amazing things, but it just makes me sad that you leave high school and your place of comfort and get thrown out into the real world so fast. Maybe it is just me because I got married so quick and had a mortgage payment right away. Either way, every day is a learning experience....In high school my senior year, I was forced to go through something that was really hard for me and I learned who my true friends were and who weren't. It was probably one of the hardest experiences of my life, but since I have graduated I have learned so much and I have totally become a different person. Yeah, I have made some huge mistakes, but you learn from  them and you move on. High school was just such a simple time in my life and the little drama that I had I look back and wish that could be all I was dealing with right now. Then things like that boy walked across the stage hits you right in the face and you realize that things could be worse and it makes you so grateful for what you have and makes you want to be a better person. So needless to say, I am so proud of my sister. She is the most amazing and gorgeous thing that I have ever seen and I am so thankful that I was chosen to be her older sister. I know that she is going to go on and do amazing things and make an amazing life for herself. I am so thankful for my amazing family and how adorable they are. I am so thankful for my high school experience and it is going to be something that I am going to treasure and remember for the rest of my life, and it is the thing that has shaped me to be who I am today.

I am trying to not post pictures on facebook all summer, just pictures on here so I have a reason to blog more and because it feels more personal. Soooo we will see how well that goes because I am an instagram a holic.   How cute are my pink shoes by the way?! My mom hated them, but they were adorable. (Holla at my homegirl Kalei for still having my dress so I still have your shoes! ;)) I hope that one day my blog posts will be as hilarious as Talia's are and not all the sentimental shit that I always post about. If you want a good laugh click here and read her blog. http://www.taliajune.blogspot.com/ 

Anyways, I have a lot more to say, but I don't feel like this is the right time for me.....yet. So stay tuned and I hope to write more and more and more this summer! 

xoxo-tay

Things I am starting to learn in my 20's..

I am really weird about age and this year- 5 months to be exact- I am turning 24... I know that is not SUPER old, but I feel old. Maybe its the fact that I have a mortgage and have been married for 5 years, but whatevs...its more than halfway to 40. My middle sister is leaving for college in St. George in August and I am super stressed out about it...She seems way to young to be living by herself at a party school, I'll probably spend every waking moment worried if she is hungover trying to do her homework and not flunk out of college....then I think "Come on Tay, she isn't you, she didn't spend her entire senior year at the mall instead of school and she has gotten awesome grades all through high school and has a good head on her shoulders." It's just crazy to think at her age I was planning a wedding and looking at houses, with my own choice I wasn't having a baby or whatever to sway my decision to be with Tony or not. I have been having a hard time lately with Talia leaving and dealing with the fact that she is going to be doing something with her life and I am stuck in the same exact place that I was when I was 18, I have the same job, no college degree, the same house, the same shit in my house...quite honestly the only thing that has changed in the last 5 1/2 years is my weight....which I am not proud of by the way! But, looking back on the past 5 years I have learned some things that will help me not be so depressed and down on myself all.the.time. So that is where the idea for this blog post came around. 

-It's okay to say thank you to a compliment. If someone tells you "Hey! You have awesome hair today!" You can say JUST Thank you! If you don't like their hair you don't have to say some bull shit compliment about them too. I read an article in Cosmo about this subject and it's so true. All the time someone would compliment me and I would hurry and think of something back to say to them, even if it wasn't true. That isn't sincere and that doesn't help build them up, so if you don't really mean it just say thank you and move on. 

-Marriage is tough. It's not lovey dovey all the time. You grow up and you have real problems 60% of the time. 

-Your sisters and your mom are always going to be your best friend, you just never realized it. You go through your whole life hating them all the time and when you move out you realize just how much you care about them and would do anything for them. If you and your sister get into a fight, you are forced to work it out so your family dinners won't be awkward and in her weird way she was giving you that push you needed to figure your shit out. No matter what they will always be there and your mom is literally always right. She has always been right about everything your whole life, but luckily she gave you your own space to figure that all out on your own. 

-Sometimes life calls for you to be a bitch, but don't use that to your advantage. If someone hits your parked car and thinks its not their problem to pay for it, it is. Pull out your bitch claws and get that taken care of. You need to know how to stand up for yourself and be able to back yourself up. Don't talk about people behind their back, that doesn't get you anywhere. If you have a problem with someone bring it up to them,  not everyone else. We aren't in high school anymore. 

-You are going to get a "woman's body" I was so stressed out when one morning I woke up with hips and huge boobs, but its okay. Some ladies would kill for that. Accept the fact that you will probs never fit in your size 0 high school Hollister jeans, probably never fit in most of Hollisters clothes again, and move on. Take care of your body and realize that maybe you don't need french fries from McDonalds randomly throughout the day....it will ruin all the hard work at the gym. Make the gym a part of your life because now that you're getting older, you have cholesterol and breast cancer and all that fun stuff to worry about that you can prevent if you work out and eat better. 

-If you don't have your entire life figured out it's okay.  You don't need to have a college degree under your belt to feel good about yourself. Go back to school when you are really ready and will really commit to it, if you do it before you're ready it will just be a waste of time and money. If you don't have a baby by the time everyone else has one, that's okay too. Timing is everything and things will happen when they are supposed to happen with who they are supposed to happen with. It took me a looooong time to realize this one, but you have to trust that everything with be okay and happen how it's supposed too. 

-some people might not like you and that's okay too. You don't need to spend your life worrying about that and trying to make everyone happy to be apart of the "it" crowd. Just be yourself and the people who are ment to be in your life will be there. screw everyone else. Don't change for anyone.

-It's okay to open up and let people in. You don't need to keep everything to yourself and blow up one day. If someone wants to be there to help you and talk you through things.....let them.  Come to terms with the fact that they might hurt you and realize that's okay. It's okay to let your feelings out and lay everything on the table. If they hurt you, pick your baggage up and move on. 

-Travel and laugh more. Life is to short to waste it working to pay the bills. Save up some money and go on the dream vaca that you have always wanted too, if you want to go to Disneyland pick a date and do everything you can to make that happen. Do the things that you really truly want to do before you have kids and those things become harder. If you see a cute pair of boots, buy them. Chances are if you are still thinking about those guys a month later it is ment to be. Don't over think things, just be spontaneous and do them. 

-Sometimes you are going to want to stay in and read a book on a Saturday night instead of go out to a club and drink. Hangovers last longer then 4 hours the older you get, sometimes they last for 2 days and if you work 12 hours the next day you don't want to work that hungover. So stay in and read that book girl! You got this! Learn how to handle yourself when you are drunk, you don't want to be the girl who everyone has to pause their night to take care of and your puking in the street bawling tears! Lets be honest, we have all had that happen, but don't make it a habit. Know your limits and how to have a good time without all the drama. 

-Stop trying to keep people in your life who aren't ment to be there. Your best friend from high school most likely isn't going to be your bestie forever. stop trying to make that happen. Be thankful for the awesome memories that you will always remember and move on. 

-It's okay if one night you want to binge eat pizza and drink beer and watch 5 episodes of South Park or Workaholics. 

-If the 16 year old girl at work doesn't know who the hell Backstreet Boys or The Spice Girls are....don't stress. When they both do their tours you can go rock out with people your age. Who wants to party with youngins anyway?

- Never be that trashy girl who is always posting the F word on her Facebook and flipping off the camera in pictures. That is disgusting. 

-Realize that the years go by way to fast and you shouldn't stress the small things that have no significance to you, you'll make it through and be okay. Life is to short to worry about things like that and work your life away. Just breath and relax, you still have enough time to figure things out. 24 really isn't that old anyways, sometimes that is just the true beginning of your life. ♥  

xoxo~tay. 

Thankful

So a couple of days ago I was reading my horoscope...side note here: I am OBSESSED with astrology, I 100% believe in that stuff. If my horoscope said "Leo, stay home and don't leave the house today or you will die." I would never leave my house. With that being said...my horoscope the other day said to be thankful for the little things in your life and you will receive some awesome blessings. So I was thinking about that and I was realizing that I do have a lot to be thankful for in my life. So I am going to make a list of those because my last post was me being a complaining cathy about mono...which I am fully recovered from by the way, FINALLY.

-Daybreak: I know 9 times out of 10 I complain about living in Daybreak because of the HOA fees or whatevs, but I just went for a run around the lake and it was BEAUTIFUL. I forgot how much I love running around the lake. I do this every year when it starts to get warm and the first couple of runs around the lake are exhilarating, the snow is all melted, the sun is shining, the air is crisp and cold but feels good because you are sweating and it feels amazing. I seriously love it and sets up for the most amazing day.

-Britney Spears: While I am on the running/working out subject, Britney Spears new album is AWESOME to work out too. "Work Bitch" is the greatest song in the world probs. That lady has still got it, I'll tell you what.

-My job:  I work at an awesome place and I have met some of the most amazing people who have made a huge impact in my life working at Chuck-a-rama. There are some days that I absolutely hate working there and honestly telling people that I wait tables/manage a restaurant is sometimes embarrassing, but I make awesome money that I can make a living with and work with my best friends. What can get better then that?

-Cowboy boots; Lately I have had a serious obsession with cowboy boots. They are SO comfortable and go with everything. I am a country girl at heart I think. Yesterday, Tony took me shopping and I got the CUTEST boots in the entire world. I seriously could not stop talking about them and I think by the end of the night Tony was about ready to slap me because I wouldn't shut up about these damn boots.

Seriously, how could you not LOVE these little sweethearts. Thank you JMR for going out of business and having everything 50% off so I got these for $45 instead of $90. obsessed. 

-Country Music: Back to the country girl at heart thing....I am obsessed with country music. It is so weird to think that I used to HATE it. I don't listen to anything but country anymore. Currently listening to Luke Bryan station on Pandora while I type this....amaze balls I tell ya. 

-Luke Bryan: While on the country topic, we are just going to take a moment and be thankful for Luke Bryan. He is amazingly attractive and talented. Those teeth are to die for. 

-The mall: I am a shopaholic and I know how big of a problem it is, but I am so thankful for the mall. Weird, but whatev. 

-My mom: She is the most amazing lady that I have ever met. I know I have talked about her before, but I seriously love her. We had a lot of problems when I was growing up, but now that I am older and married, she is my best friend and I couldn't do anything without her. She has gone through so much in her life and instead of being bitter she isn't. She just takes it and moves on. Last night we were on the phone for 45 mins just talking about the Teem mom specials that were on yesterday. Who does that? Love ya mom! 

-My sisters: Again, growing up, we absolutely hated eachother. If these two girls were not in my life, I don't know where I would be. I don't have kids yet, but I imagine a mothers love when I look at them. I care so much and so deeply about them and if anyone messes with them or says something mean about either one of them on Twitter the claws come out. They have both grown into amazing, beautiful, smart girls and I can't wait to see where life takes them. I am so so thankful to have instant best friends who are just like me and who will ALWAYS be there for me. I.love.them. 

-bruised ankles: This one is kind of weird, but this weekend I went out dancing with my friends in Park City and it was so much fun, but I haven't worn high heels in SO long that dancing for 5 hours in them and walking around the streets of PC made my ankles get bruised. Even though running killed me today because they really do hurt, it is worth it. I am so thankful for my friends and all of us having eachothers drunken backs all the time. I am thankful that Tony trusts me enough to let me go to girls nights every month and go to clubs and not even question twice on if I will hit on someone else because he trusts me enough. These things are things that I will always remember and always look back and be so thankful for. 

-Disney Again, a weird one. But I am thankful for Disney. Everytime I am feeling sad or having a bad day, I can always pop in a Disney movie or Disney Pandora and instantly feel happier. Don't ask me why, but I am just obsessed with Disney. 

-Dancing: I love to dance. I stopped dancing for a while and I really wish that I didn't, but oh well. I feel so free and alive when dancing. Sometimes (cough cough, this morning) I'll just turn on Pandora and dance around my house while cleaning up. Dancing with the girls, Dancing with Tony, Country line dancing, dancing in the kitchen with my friends at work. I feel like my day is not complete if I haven't done some sort of dance move. 

-Summer: I almost wanted to type the words to that summer song here from Frozen. haha. This summer is going to be amazing. I am SO excited. Not only are there a million and a half country concerts that all my money will be going too, It is going to be so warm and I will be tan and hopefully skinnier, I just want to sit by the pool and read a book all day. There is going to be Bear Lake, Fairs, Funnel Cakes, Fireworks, Fourth of July, of course my birthday. AHHH I am just to excited! 

-Tony: Last but not least, my amazing husband. (what blog post would be complete if I didn't mention my love for Tony) The.most.amazing.man.EVER. Not only does he put up with all my crazy antics.....example from above, dancing to Disney music all the time and being more than obsessed with Luke Bryan and Rick from The Walking Dead, but, last night we were talking and randomly he just told me some of the things that he loves about me....It ment so much to me. The things that I thought drove him crazy are the things that are his favorite. I asked him what he would do if I didn't do some of those crazy things, and he told me that I wouldn't be me and he probably wouldn't be with me because he loves them so much. Now, as I am bawling typing this, he is amazing and I really truly got so lucky to be with him. Sometimes I lose sight with that, but then he will do little things to make me remember how perfect he is. Not only did he take me shopping last night because I was DYING to go, he took me to Olive Garden because I was craving it the whole time that I had mono...Have you ever realized how many Olive Garden commercials there are in a day? A lot I tell you. Anyways, he wasn't feeling good and was so tired because I spend a really long time at the mall, but he still took me to make me happy and it was probably the best meal of my entire life. He is just perfect and I will forever be grateful for him coming into my life and choosing me to spend the rest of his life with and have a family with. I know he will be reading this so I love you Tone and thank you so much for loving me for me and not wanting me to change. 

I feel like this is a really long list, but once I started I couldn't stop. Some of these things are silly, but I am so thankful for my life and the things that I have been blessed with and it is nice to take a step back from the busyness and look at the tiny things that you sometimes skip over. So thank you horoscope for making me think about it! That guy always knows what is best for me. ;) 

xox-tay ♥ 

ps: forgot to mention the greatest movie in the world and the most fun to quote. So there is my final thought for the day. I hope you had a good long laugh like I did when I found this pin! :) 

  

 

Lately...

So I have been slacking horribly at this guy, I honestly have had so much going on that hasn't been good that I didn't want to be one of "those people" who complained all the time. So I have just stayed away, but, these last couple weeks I have had mono (worst sickness ever, I hope no one ever has to have it) and I have been stuck in bed doing nothing but watching crappy reality tv and HBO all day, I had to get up and do something different, so here we are.

So, last night Tony and I had a really really good talk about our lives and were we were headed. We haven't had a very awesome 2013 year to be honest, it was probably the hardest year of my entire life...there was so much crap that had happened and then there was the whole baby thing that wasn't fun at all. The hardest part was though at the end of the year Tony and I started having problems in our marriage, I NEVER in life thought that would happen to us, in my mind we were the strongest couple ever and we could get through anything, which we could mostly. I feel like we were both so stressed out with random bills coming up and our regular bills, he was working a ton, I was working 6 nights a week and some of those were 12 hour days so I was NEVER seeing Tony. and it was HARD. Marriage is not an easy thing. We got married when I was 18 and he was 21 and I was so excited and I thought it would be like a sleepover every night with my best friend.....not like that at all. It is something that you have to work at every.single.day. and there are some days that you don't know how are you going to make it to the next day. To make a long story short, we both did somethings that we regret and we had to go through those things to get back to eachother and get our lives back in order. Tony is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me in my life and I know that I was ment to be with him for a reason, I know that I was ment to go through the trials that we have together with him. I am extremely lucky and I will never take that for granted again. Other things that I won't take for granted is drinking, with this mono my throat has been so swollen that I have hardly been able to drink...I had to go into the doctor and get 3 bags of fluid through an IV because I was so dehydrated, 3!!! Now, I am slowly drink water through a straw, when I just want to guzzle it, but I can't. bleh.
-Talking, I will start to talk but then get tired or my throat will start to hurt so I will have to stop and text Tony even though he is sitting right next to me.
-Singing in the car, for anyone who knows me knows that I am a huge car singer. Let me tell you how much torture it is to not sing in that guy. I don't even want to listen to music because I can't just belt it out.Tony is probs happy that he gets a little break from that one though.
-eating, ALL I want is doritos and ALL I can eat is soup. I think that is all I can say about that subject.
-Kissing, Tony will not kiss me on the lips until I am better. I miss his kisses every second of the day! :(

okay, that is all of the feeling sorry for myself. I guess the point of this blog was to just tell Tony thank you for being amazing and to complain a little bit about this horrible sickness and to try and get into blogging again. We have a lot of fun plans for this year. We have decided to just not even think about a baby and just let it happen on its own time. Our 5 year anniversary is coming up in April and we are going on a family vacation to Northern California and staying on a beach house. I.am.so.excited. I have made it my goal to wake up early every morning and go running and watch the sunrise on the beach. I also told Tony that I want to ride horses on the beach, that has always been my dream. ahhhh I can't even wait! We are also going to go to Southern California in October and do the whole Disneyland Halloween that we used to do and see LUKE  BRYAN in concert in LA. HoLLA! So exciting! So I am hoping that this year will be much better than last with all the fun things that we have planned and that our baby will come in its time and it will be so worth it! Thanks for reading my pointless blog of the day!

xoxo-gossip girl (did I mention that I've watched a loooot of netflix?? haha)

Just a little reminder...

So, today got off to a little bit of a rough start for Tony and I. Tony wanted to be to work an hour earlier this morning and I was dropping him off so he could come with me to a doctor appointment for my thyroid this afternoon. (I have anxiety about going to the doctor alone.) Low and behold, we both woke up way late and were in a huge rush, Tony couldn't find his pants he wanted to wear, I was feeling sick (keep your fingers crossed that I am pregnant.) Halfway to work Tony figured out that he left his phone at work, he had a way bad migraine this morning because he is getting off of energy drinks. etc..the list could go on for a bad morning. I was trying to get Tony happier by telling him that he only had 5 hours of work and then we had the whole night together, He wasn't having it. Dropped him off, asked him to please try and have a good day said I love you and I was off.

On my way home I was listening to the radio and the family of the police officer who got shot and killed this past weekend was on. They were saying how amazing he was and how caring and how he was leaving a wife and son behind. It made me bawl of course, I can't handle people losing their husbands because I relate to them so easily. Anyway, it got me thinking, even though I was sooo bugged with Tony being grumpy this morning and he was sooo bugged with me telling him to have a better attitude, This poor lady will never have that again because her husband is gone all thanks to this horrible person who just decided to shoot him. It.broke.my.heart. I feel like Tony and I get so caught up in doing everyday things that we forget to slow down and really spend time with eachother and our families or friends. We get so stressed out over bills or house projects and just need to take things slow, in a second it could all be gone.

I do not know what I would do if I was to lose Tony one day. I depend on him for every single thing in my life. If I am having a bad day, frustrated with anything, happy with anything, want to talk to someone, want to go shopping with someone, anything. I always turn to Tony. He is truly my best friend and the love of my life. Sometimes it does scare me how much I love him because if I ever did lose him, I would turn into a vegetable and not be able to function. I feel for this poor lady who lost her husband and her darling little boy. I hope that they can find peace in their situation that they have been put in. I am so happy that I was in the car at that time so that I could hear their story and get a little reminder, at the beginning of a hectic day, to slow things down a little bit and don't take anything for granted.


xoxo. Tay.

50 random things

One of my friends started a little game to post 50 random things about yourself, so here we go :)

1.) I am OBSESSED with the color mint. If it is in mint, I will buy it.
2.) I own more shoes than clothes, it drives Tony crazy. 100 pairs to be exact. I have a problem.
3.) I love Sprite zero, it is the only soda that I will drink.
4.) I take pictures of everything. I never want to forget anything, Instagram is my best friend.
5.) I hate getting out of bed in the morning
6.) I have a really really hard time dieting. I love junk way to much.
7.) I am terrified of the dark.
8.) Halloween is my all time favorite holiday and I will dress up every year, even if we don't end up doing anything.
9.) I love tootsie rolls and strawberry laffy taffys
10.) I hate being home alone. I always have to have a tv on or music playing.
11.) I will be nice to anyone, regardless of what they have done to me. I always give second chances.
12.) With 11 being said, if you mess up on your second, third, or fourth chance...I hold a grudge and I hold it well.
13.) I could live off of Chili's queso dip and chips. YUM!
14.) I refuse to go anywhere in my PJ's. I will always dress up before I leave the house.

15.) Marilyn Monroe is my homegirl!
16.) I love to hashtag stuff.
17.) Any chance I get, I will watch Disney Channel throwback shows. (Lizzie Micguire, Thats so Raven, Even Stevens)
18.) I am addicted to dramatic tv shows, Gossip Girl is the recent one.
19.) I 100% believe that mine and Tony's relationship is as close to perfect as it gets.

20.) I am obsessed with ANYTHING Disney. Vintage Disney is my FAVORITE.

21.) I will never pass up a time to quote Mean Girls.
22.) I am in LOOOOOVE with sloths. Please let me own one!

23.) I love dancing
24.) Minions. that is all I need to say about those adorable little guys.
25.) I can cry on the drop of a hat. I am extremely emotional.
26.) I love Dr. Suess.
27.) I have a secret obession to Toddlers and Tiaras, even though it disgusts me, its pure entertainment.
28.) I love zombies and I pray there will be a one day zombie apocolypse sometime in my life.

29.) I love shooting guns
30.) I am all FOR gay rights
31.) I crave cookies on a daily basis
32.) Quotes are my weakness
33.) I love to read. I could read 24 hours a day.
34.) To Kill a Mockingbird and The Great Gatsby are my favorite books ever.
35.) I will be a Backstreet boys fan for the rest of my life. #bsbordie
36.) Tangled is my favorite Disney movie. If anything has Repunzel, I will buy it.
37.) I believe that mermaids exist. 100%

38.) Being a gentleman and ALWAYS wearing their wedding ring is the sexiest thing a man could do. (cough cough Tony is awesome at this, still to this day he opens the door for me.)

39.) I love crude humor. Tony and I have an addiction to the "late night comedy" section on Netflix. 

40.) I am obsessed with coffee

41.) I am a hair product whore. 

42.) I have a problem saving money. 

43.) One day, mark my words, I will own an Audi R8

44.) I HATE going to the gym. 

45.) Target is my soul mate. 

46.) I am a sucker for anything to do with the 90's

47.) I have a hard time letting go of people. I attach myself to people and I make friends verrrry easy. 

48.) I hate buying makeup

49.) I would do anything for my sisters or my mom. They are the world to me. 

50.) I always try to look at the positive side of things and always life my life to the fullest. :) 

My birthday!

So this last week I had my birthday! I was really not looking forward to it because, even though I am only 23, I feel super old. I am not to sure if it is because I have been married almost 5 years, but I am an old lady. Like any birthday, Tony made it amazing. He had some GORGEOUS flowers delivered to my work and then we went to Park City with some of our friends. We had a great time.

We had a really fun time and I have the greatest friends ever. I am so thankful for each and every one of them and so thankful for Tony being in my life! Hoping for some really awesome things to happen this year of 23....mainly a baby of course! :) YAY for being 23! :) 

xoxo~Tay