On my way home I was listening to the radio and the family of the police officer who got shot and killed this past weekend was on. They were saying how amazing he was and how caring and how he was leaving a wife and son behind. It made me bawl of course, I can't handle people losing their husbands because I relate to them so easily. Anyway, it got me thinking, even though I was sooo bugged with Tony being grumpy this morning and he was sooo bugged with me telling him to have a better attitude, This poor lady will never have that again because her husband is gone all thanks to this horrible person who just decided to shoot him. It.broke.my.heart. I feel like Tony and I get so caught up in doing everyday things that we forget to slow down and really spend time with eachother and our families or friends. We get so stressed out over bills or house projects and just need to take things slow, in a second it could all be gone.
I do not know what I would do if I was to lose Tony one day. I depend on him for every single thing in my life. If I am having a bad day, frustrated with anything, happy with anything, want to talk to someone, want to go shopping with someone, anything. I always turn to Tony. He is truly my best friend and the love of my life. Sometimes it does scare me how much I love him because if I ever did lose him, I would turn into a vegetable and not be able to function. I feel for this poor lady who lost her husband and her darling little boy. I hope that they can find peace in their situation that they have been put in. I am so happy that I was in the car at that time so that I could hear their story and get a little reminder, at the beginning of a hectic day, to slow things down a little bit and don't take anything for granted.
xoxo. Tay.
